Sooooo.

I have been trying to persuade myself to attempt to write the 8 page research paper due monday for a while now. It's not quite working. I guess I don't actually want to make my life easier? I'm going to hate myself sunday. SOooo much.
But as to whether I should really be upset by the procrastination or not, I can't quite say. I mean I kinda enjoy the last minute rush, and complaining about it after wards. And why should I adhere to people telling me that the best thing to do is be on top of silly little school projects. I mean, of course college might be angry at me if I fail my senior year, but its not like I'd fail it, I'd just be up all night and tired the next day.
Well I guess the LOGICAL thing would to be on top of it, but when have I ever listened to logic, or recognized it when its sound?
The silliest part is when I argue for one side, i lean to the other, and then when I switch, I can't figure out why I switched.
Also pointing out, I'm terrible at arguing.
errrrr.

jdfkdjfkldjfkljfsd.
Damnit ahah.
Senioritis so bad.
Maybe I just like feeling bad about not doing it, well its more like thinking bad about doing it, My spirits are pretty merry right now. My brain hyperactive.

And who wants to manipulate themselves anyway? Well whats the line between manipulating and .. oh hell I don't know what to name it. that thing you do thats not reasoning and its not suggesting but its both?
I have a feeling my ability to express myself has taken a turn for the worst?
:/

I applied to target today!