Realization

So I'm actually not as mad as I thought I was. Just afraid. And overreactant.

Very overreactant.

I think I get it from my mother.

But I shouldn't blame her.

I don't really know if there is really anyone to blame, even myself, because can people really chose their personalities when it comes down to it? Yes we can change ourselves, but we are all given some basics.

As for now its just a basic that a have to deal with.

So there was this quote from a short movie about marbury vs. madison that reallly struct home. i even wrote it down. "Peace is not the absence of conflict but rather the ability to cope with it."

In my opinion humans are always with war at themselves, its a matter or heart vs. head. Sometimes the head wins and the heart becomes defeated, giving up the fight but for a few rare occasions. At other times the heart is the winner and the head is lost.

But i feel bad for people like that, neither of those...well not really options or choices...I guess they would be possible occurences seem like living to me. What is life without utter feeling?

What is a life without constant pain without the head?

But those with slightly equal yet completely opposite parts (the heart and head) seem to be fated to constantly struggle with themselves. With each fight each side learning a little more about how to cope with the other side. Or with one side winning and the other losing ground, with becomes dangerous when one side looses to much and become no more than a faded memory.

And i made this a draft a few days ago because it didn't seem finished. Which is funny because today i kinda got the end for it.

I was watching this show that randomly popped up on the tv, which i dont watch often, about Batman and the psychology of it. It went on to say that there is a lot of different opinions over which persona of Bruce wayne is the real man.

Batman or Bruce Wayne?

I came to the conclusion that it was Batman. I'm sure this is important, I just don't really have a reason yet. Perhaps it's that i believe the person we chose to be not who we are in the begining is what makes us us. And well, Batman was always in Bruce Wayne, he just had to find a way to let him free.

If that makes any sense.