hello again dear friend.

I don't know where I should classify all these thoughts that are floating in and out of my mind. Nor do I know whether I should keep them or discard them as waste products of the past. Suprisingly I am actually pretty content with the way my life is turning out, and the recent past events.
Although my brain has been asking a slightly bothering question, I don't think its worth thinking about because I really can not and will not do anything to change it, or if I did I'm not sure it would really be for the best. Well anyway, I figured it was worth putting down because it has been nudging me for a while and anything that persistent should atleast have its debue into the world. All this is to sya that maybe, maybe I really am completely inferior to a lot of people. But I don't think this is so. Maybe I'm not that different from everyone, but I think I might be. No one else really seems to see things the way I do. I really don't think one side is wrong or one side is right, its just what is best for each individual side. I have chosen my path. So I don't think I am, if anyone begs to differ, thats their own opinion.
I'm kind of glad the past has happened becuase its moments like this that make it worth it. Not that this moment should have brought upon this, or well, was expected to, but it has and I'm perfectly fine with that.
Things are finally becoming clear again, I'm so glad. I feel alive again, go figure.
So in the bathroom a day ago it finally hit me that I was indeed in reality. That I was a part of it, that I will be a part of it for for ever how long my part is to be played. Well not played, because I'm not acting.
Not anymore.