So many questions

I havent posted anything in a while. I'm not sure why. I've had a lot to discuss. But that time is gone, so why ponder upon it?
I ask a lot of questions.
I always have some sort of question in mind about something or another. It gets a little repetitive, especially caus for all my questions I don't have very many answers. Well not nearly as many answers as I would like to have. But then, who is to say that I am not better off not knowing what I want to, the truth has a way of changing people, then again so do lies or misconceptions. I think it all really depends on who you want to be.
I wish I were funnier.
and more interesting.
And although I do want those things, I also do not want to compromise my self identity for them. So i suppose I am here as I am, for the time being.
But thats okay by me.
People really yearn to be understood and accepted. I don't think theres much behind it other than simple human instinct. Acceptence and understanding tend to lead to a greater bond between people, which leads to better protective instincts towards the other person, which would in turn drive people to protect each other. But if we are so geared towards protecting other people who is going to be there to save oneself? Someone else? Is that really a smart thing? Who knows whats best for you other than yourself?
I don't think anyone. And even if they did who would be willing to give up freewill in order to be protected?
In the right circumstances would I?
Well in the past i seem to have not, but then again I have not experienced everything there is to experience. SO I guess I shouldn't be talking, but I am.
Theres a lot else thats been on my mind but I really don't feel like sorting it out right now. So I guess its just there to rot and/or spin around in my self concious mind for a bit. It'll find its way out eventually. I think.
God stupid laziness.