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Today I regressed a little.
I don't know why.
I don't know what direction to go in.

I'm still in the process of letting go.
I still see positives and negatives.
It's been three weeks since this started.
I don't know what to do anymore.

When I am alone I find myself again. When I am in the midst of movement I falter. But I don't think I would blame outward contact.

Since when have I been awkward and nervous?
gah,

How dare I be so weak?

I have learned a lot and I have lost a lot, but I really need to just be okay. Which is to say everything will be in the end.
I think myself in circles.

It would seem my problems start with narcissism and a deflating ego.