Maybe

How do you even begin to explain this? Where will my words mislead you today? Its not like I mean to make people think things about me that aren't true, not consciously. Maybe they can see it. What is true anyway? There we go again. There I go again just questioning the foundations of the statement. Is it healthy? I don't know. I'm finding my way back to stability, I'm sure there are some people that think I'm absolutely insane. Mostly people in my English class. Like the kid who studied me for ten minutes to write a story about me. He didn't see me, he just saw how I was dressed. Thats what he commented on. Maybe that's a good thing. Fuck maybe. God fucking shit up a dick maybe. I have nothing but maybe. Maybe I won't go crazy today. Maybe I'll see what is there today. Maybe I'm not naive. Maybe they accept me, maybe they like me but don't understand what the like, or that what they are liking isn't really exactly me. I am whatever you say I am I do suppose. In a way.
She didn't want to talk to me, I could tell. She told me she had OCD. It was comforting, I told her I had an anxiety problem, she just was like, eyebrow raise, both sides, no change in anything else. Maybe a quick turning upwards of the lips. I didn't know what that meant. She mattered to me because I thought she was a good writer and had a strong personality, he didn't matter because he seemed useless. I am a harsh person. I could try and accept him for what he was and try and see that. Here I am saying no one understands me when I completely withdraw from people that I'm told are not worth my attention. From what? society, cues I take as meaning something I don't value, their own neediness, society.
So I am an ant. I'm that ant that doesn't get any work done but thinks they're important because they sit in the corning dreaming of mattering. Not that there is any account of an ant that did anything like that.
We all give ourself worth in areas that we don't have it in and ignore areas we do.
Appreciation 101.
I skipped it.

Apparently I ramble but I wouldn't give up that for anything. (no one else understands=my explanation as to why they disregard my thoughts as not valid((dont we all do that? or am I alone?)) )
I get shivers and I try to figure out why. I come up with some pretty off answers.

Funny how much opinions are unstable, for reasons I don't care to explain. Maybe If I could you'd agree.

maybe.