yo yo yo.
I'm so bad with follow through. I'm was so hard trying to stay a little bit less provocative, just cause I felt like I was losing my whimsy and that seemed a likely 'doable' way to fix that. Well thats kind of a lie. Its whatever.
Theres more to the story but I'm not posting it here.
So childish.

I've been doing so many radical things to myself, the hair, the piercings, the soon to be tattoo, whenever the fuck that gets done.

Oh expectations, I'm so bad at staying within limits. Its just not my fav.
Not one bit.

"where love goes, change will follow"
so corny, but I like it.
Actually the way I found that was though going onto this quote site and pressing random, closing my eyes and telling myself that the first one I saw would be a good one.
I do stupid shit like that a lot. At least now I only half believe it.... Half.
ahaha.

I'm such a silly goose. Nor can I figure out if I'm actually confident or not, but I really don't feel like fiddling too much with my perception right now because life is B-E-Autiful. Today someone told me that they didn't regret the past because it brought them to the present, and I used to think like that when i was on the high of my mental excursions, but that thinking backfires.
When you're feeling shitty, saying "Well the past brought me here" and that just kinda turns your stomache to mush and your head feels like its being drilled through.
for me at least.

I just don't regret (try, always add try) because thinking about what you regret, too heavily always just leads to more regret.
"I won't worry, I won't be made useless"
(define useless......)

Getting myself out of situations I don't want to be in is not solved by easy answers. There's absolutely no concrete formula.
All i think about is how iffy the world is, but thats my stance. Mostly always has been, mostly always will be. (?)