Expectations.

The spring break trip has been incredibly eventful, and I'm glad Erin was there becuase somehow our lives intermingle moodwise so that I wasn't alone once.
Eli told me he got a sense I wasn't what people expect me to be, and I'm positive of it. I guess thats why I feel kinda seperated at times. Its not like I'm super unhappy, its just that I'm not always this crazy wacky experimental person, its just what works best for me when interacting with people. Its a fun image, but sometimes I feel a little trapped intellectually, I have so much on my mind people wouldn't think I would.
How do I keep up with me? It's confusing.

I like Florida more than I rightfully should, and I don't want to go back to Pa. I can't believe I only have a few more months to go before college; I worry on and off about how I'm going to pay for it, because according to Bloomsburg my parents can afford to pay for my college, but last year my dad had a good job and now its gone.
I, I'll get by. It has never crossed my mind I wouldn't be going to college and my mind has not changed, I don't care how many loops I have to jump.

Damn I need to start getting my determination on, I have so much in me held back by laziness.

Writing is so healthy, recognizing the thoughts we disregard, they're a part of us, why do we forsake them?
Sometimes I think I have way to much in my head to rightfully deal with.

Eli's actually really good at noticing things. I'm surprised by him, and his dry sense of humor when he lets it out is so damn funny.

I really do know how I want to come across to people and exceed at portraying it sometimes. But it doesnt help me get what I want when I want it most.
grrrrr.

I still need to start realizing its not all about me. Diagnosis: human condition.

Its fun giving the people you see in the street little stories.
I feel a little cooped up right now, nor can I figure out when to put the ' after it and before s. It bothers me. Why am I not looking it up?

I feel really special when people genuinely open up to me.