"Doubt is there as a test for vitality" -Waking Life

Ever feel like there is no up and there is no down? I'm sure there must be some truth in directions, but I've yet to know exactly what that is. Maybe I spend too much time trying to figure out stuff and not enough time being serious. But my nature is my nature and I'm done trying to fight it. At the same time I have barely started the fight. I have yet to figure out why I can't say exactly what I'm thinking. A lot of the time I just feel like I'm on autopilot, saying things I've decided are the best easiest thing to say in certain situations. There are a lot of easy answers to an array of problems, complicated and simple. That is not to say they are the best answers. Maybe it would be better if I just didn't think as much as I do. Until I have better evidence I shall continue living life as I have decided is best for me. Even if occasionaly my self doubts my self. 

All shall be okay if one has the right state of mind. What exactly the best state of mind is has yet to be discovered. To care or not to care, that is the question. 

Balance

Balance

Balance

is key.  

Right?

I think so, thats been on of my fundemental beliefs for quite some time. It seems logical.

But god damnit I just want to live. 

And it always feels like I'm just trying out new ways to be. Which I guess could mean I'm me in that. 

See I have this theory, that the you you are is soley dependent on the right now. Who you were does not define you, soley. Straying from ones nature is impossible. In my opinion. Who are we to defy nature that has made us who we are? Is any one really that strong? 

Everything can be mocked. It just depends on how willing you are to invest yourself in something and protect it. I'd suggest you pick your parts carefully. Or you could be like me and just wrecklessly throw yourself around. 

People sure do invest too much in words. Like woah a lot. 

a lot

a lot

lottty .

lot. 

:].

If I could make a bird sign form thing i would right now

but alas i care not enough to work on that. 

zo well.