A beautiful day.

I have been in the weirdest mood possible. While I should feel happy, I just feel lost. Like theres something I'm supposed to be finding, but it continues to slip right through my fingers. Its almost as if while I was supposed to be making a right turn I went left and ended up in what the fuck land. The journey was fun, but I think I'm ready for a new direction, although all directions seem to be are just new ways to fill up nothingness. I'm so unsatisfied right now, I know its just a stage and that I'm in a metamorphisis at the moment but its just so annoying. It makes sense as to why i would be nervy at the moment, even though i had an awesome weekend. Well besides the short time yesterday where I felt unwanted and today when I felt lost. I'll find my way again. I know I will. 

I almost feel guilty posting this. Maybe I am the guilty one. 

I know this is just momentary darkness, warranted or not. I'll pull myself through, I always do. 

Today was a beautiful day outside. 

Theres nothing to be upset about. I feel better now. I think I just needed to recognize the feeling and confront it before it grew unattended into something larger and much scarier. 

BOOOO.